EVEN IF


even if you went away,
your memory will stay,
because you are the only one,
who makes me feel this way.

even if you forget me,
my world will turn around,
because all your thoughts will stay with me,
even after you're gone.

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START


It makes me smile whenever i think about you,
We started to be friends that's all i knew,
We been so close laughter is present everyday,
You always telling jokes so funny to my ear.

You help me with my report and you give me confidence,
You're always there for me, you give more than less,
You're always my support, you care so much for me,
I like being with you, you're so nice to me.

All our classmates believe there's something between us,
Because they noticed the sweetness between us,
I just have to laugh whenever they asked me,
Cause i know we're just close, you're a good friend to me.

I dont want to say anything and i don't want to explain,
But then i wonder why you've always been concerned,
Why are you doing so many things for me?
I can't help on wondering if you're in-love with me????

11/14/94
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Why?


Why do we said goodbye?
if theres still chance to try,
if we try...maybe our love will be the way,
for a brighter life and love to share.

Why do we have to feel the pain?
if there's a way to keep you out in vain,
if knowledge we know will be enough,
we can make our life easy without those bumpy route.

Why do we have to lose?
someone or something we needed most,
why do we have to be alone?
if there's a shoulder we can lean on.

Why do we always find it hard?
to forget memories and set aside,
why do something end up so abrupt?
and all that's left is regrets and doubts.

Why do this life so difficult?
not just to face it but to understood?
why do we have those right and wrong?
sometimes i just can't get it's so questionable.

10/29/94
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Suicide


"When my past suck me in and sadness came in, i feel like stoping my world and delete all the part that makes me sad eventhough i know it is suicide."

I want to end that life,
by commiting any kind of of suicide,
right now i'll start with overdose,
so it wont hurt until my eyes closed.

or maybe i'll cut my wrist,
so my pulse will stop along with my body rest,
that way the ache will stop,
and the tears will be dry inside my heart.

or i'll stub myself , until im out of blood,
to forget how my life turn out so bad,
afterwards i wont feel guilty nor feel sad,
while i lie lifeless inside that box.

or maybe i'll just jump or hang myself,
until im sure that i am dead,
i choose to end it all than to suffer here alone,
and killing that past life is the only way for me to go on.

5/8/98
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Your Time


"Dedicated to Miss Menchie."

You're a bit too young to go there yet,
that makes it even harder to accept,
but what can we do if time was set,
and you have to go, while we can't...

Dry your eyes...don't make it wet,
go on and follow what's heaven sent,
listen and understand "God" with what "He" meant,
and give us signal where you went...

Because you're in a place where we couldn't get through,
even if we tried hard to see or visit you,
just hang-on there 'cause we will meet again,
when our time comes, we'll just trace the path where you step in...

7/19/98
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Happy Birthday Inang!


Happy new year Mother,
Try to be much prepare,
Life has a lot to offer,
Get your pick to start all over...

Age really doesn't matter,
As long as you aim for the better,
Changes thru times are bitter,
But it feels good right after...

Happy birthday Mother,
Try to be much braver,
Dig your life more deeper,
And do not stop to discover...

But put "God" first above the other,
Communicate everday with a prayer,
Ask for assistance where to enter,
Before you step forward much further...

I will cherish you Mother,
Though we're no longer together,
I wish you to be more stronger,
and i hope you will learn to all the failures
you'll encounter,

4-22-98"
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Positivity


Forget the past to embrace a brighter future ahead,
Learn to forgive to experience a peaceful life instead,
Completely open your heart to accept even your enemy,
and you'll begin to understand a true love without uncertainty.

4/26/2017
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